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I’d thought the acacia had shed their flowers by now, but my mind was playing tricks on me after such an extended period of existing in isolation from the evolution of seasons (it feels like March still, it could well be October though on some mornings). The acacia trees are in full bloom, but disappointingly stripped of their sweet perfume. To the best of my memory, it’s not happened before, but then again why wouldn’t it in this state of upside-down all around us? The elderflower is doing intoxicatingly well, in case you were wondering. Clearly, I’ve still got work to do on managing my own expectations.
Please stop saying you have no expectations at all (ever). This absolute stance sounds enthralling on Twitter or on one-line so-called-poetry Insta profiles, but it’s a lie to tell yourself after disappointment hits. It’s impossible not to have expectations, otherwise how could you relate to reality? How would you be able to infer from the data in front of you? But I’m ready to make a concession – in our personal dynamics, if the word sends shivers up your spine and makes you feel guilty in front of all this social (media) pressure to not have expectations, let’s call them differently. I like to think of them as wishes, although in their impossibility some might rather be lofty dreams deserving to remain unspoilt by attempts to turn into reality.
I refuse to use the phrase ‘social distancing’ anymore. While thankful for the plethora of technology that’s allowed us to remain connected with the people we’ve been missing and worrying about the most, they are no replacement for human presence; even 6 feet apart.
There’s warmth shared across those 6 feet when you see the other person’s eyes light up. There’s hope in the knowledge that 6 feet will become fewer and fewer until we’re able to fall into an embrace like it’s the most important thing we’re going to achieve in our lifetimes. This is my wish.